rough day

We all knew that layoffs were coming. I got my electronic and paper files in order. Moved documents and work I was working on to a server so that my group could access it all if needed. I made a list of all the items I needed to remember in case my name was called so that in the short timeframe of the notice - I would be able to remember what I needed to do. I cleaned out a lot of my personal items off my desk and took it all home.

If it was me - I would be ready.

We knew it was happening today since HR had booked conference rooms marked "hold" and all the big wigs were in meetings on Tuesday afternoon. Also, a seminar for Wednesday morning was cancelled.

This morning when I arrived... it was pretty quiet. Not many people were around. I waited at my computer nervously of what today would bring. Everytime the door to our cubicle area would open... my heart would stop and I would turn to look at who it was. If it was just an office-mate, then my breath would slowly return until the next time.

Wait

Wait

Wait

Finally I couldn't stand it any longer and went into the lab. My boss came and found a few of us and told us all that we were "safe" and that nobody in our group was affected.

One of my friends that was laid off and she was wonderful. I hope she pursues her dream of a catering business. We would take walks together and have chats about food and recipes.

Another co-worker that was laid off came into our office to say goodbye. He has a son named Alex, too, that is 3 years old. He said to me "have fun with your Alex" and that is where I lost it. Tears welled up in my eyes and I felt so sorry for him. I know that he is going to be OK, as well. He was an excellent co-worker and I hope will find work soon. The severence package is very nice, so that makes everybody feel better, too. It includes health insurance for 14 months.

After all the dust had settled - we lost 7 people out of 46 in the department. I heard 21 in my location and 37 in the Seattle location.

It has been a rough day.